I’m on guard today. Yep…feeling a little defensive. Not sure why….just the way I feel.
I guess I feel the need to address the whole purpose of this blogging exercise. I found myself having to explain this blog after some person read one of the posts. She saw it after one of my friends “liked” it on my Facebook fan page. I don’t know if I cleared it up for her, but it is what it is.
See I am trying to accomplish three things here. One…I need to keep my fingers and mind nimble. So as I think it…I write it. Yes, it has no logical or sequential order. Yes, it tends to ramble. That’s okay. The whole point is to keep the creative juices flowing and not allow these thoughts to build up and keep me from my goal. The world needs to experience Fancy. So I have got to remove the obstacles.
Next, this is my way of venting. In my circles, I am usually the one that occupies the cheerleader and counselor roles. So when I have something going on…there are only a few people that I can find to listen to me and rally behind me. And they, too, have others needing the same service. Therefore my counseling sessions with them are limited. So I am taking one of the approaches Imani was introduced to in counseling…write it down. On paper, thoughts become much clearer and solutions develop. The problems don’t seem so bad and I don’t feel so weighed down.
Finally, I am hoping that by sharing that I am helping someone else. You know how it goes…often you learn to appreciate your own situation when you learn about another’s issues. No…this will not have a reality TV spin…you won’t get a blow-by-blow of any of my escapades. You won’t know when I am in the tub or on the toilet. But if I think it might be enlightening to someone, I am gonna share. As my friend RJ likes to say, “I’m just saying the things you wanted to, but couldn’t.” That’s a little of my Deanna persona with a D’ Anne twist. Plus, I might gain some insight from someone who saw it and could relate.
Plus there is a bonus here. If enough people find it enjoyable…if enough people follow it…then I will be able to gauge my skills. Every story teller wants to make sure that his or her audience gets it. It’s just that simple. I want to make sure you get it whenever I put words on paper. Whether it’s a memoir, poem or novel, I wonder if you can relate…can you see yourself in this.
Now let me tell you what this won’t be. I already told you it is not an expose. Some events will be glossed over…names and relationships may be altered. My intent is not to hurt or maim. I will share the details I think are relevant to the thought I am expressing…no more…no less.
It also is not a self-help guide. It is what it is….just me rambling about things. I don’t profess to know it all…not do I treat it all. I leave that in the very capable hands of trained professionals…like my girl Hannah.
And my ramblings will not have a super-religious slant. I believe in God…know that He is my creator…redeemer…provider and protector. But man…this is a simple writing exercise. He will be mentioned…just because my thoughts were focused on Him. But if any one expects this to be some thing similar to the works of Joel Osteen, Bishop T.D. Jakes, Juanita Bynum or Rick Warren, he or she will be greatly disappointed. Occasionally scripture will be referenced….but only as it relates to the subject.
So are we clear now? You can take this seriously or lightly. You can even dismiss it if you like. It is just my random thoughts…nothing more…nothing less. It truly is what it is…